Musings of a Coper

It never goes away, it just subsides. Like an unpredictable sea wave, one cannot comprehend the tides of dreams that shall hit the shores of the grainy mind. It's been difficult to fall asleep, knowing that the demons are trying to claw back. If the only thing constant is change how, seriously, how is it possible that the more the things change the more the remain the same. It's oxymoronic. 

Pink Rose signifies joy too.😌 Touched and grateful for this feeling. 

They are the worst of the species. Here are a few identifiers: 1. They will blame you for everything that's wrong in their life. Gaslighting you. 2. They will berate you constantly (while saying they can't live with negativity).  3. The most psychopathic will berate you clinically passive aggressively. 4.  They will either try to aggressively be a part of your friend circle or try to alienate you from them. The method could be as simple as making the situation uncomfortable Everytime you have a guest over. These could be by: (a) embarrassing you in front of them (b) embarrassing them or being overtly inquisitive about them and making them uncomfortable. (c) picking up fights with you every time after the guests leave on any topic ranging from how the guest is awesome but your character attracts aspersions by virtue of your company to even character assassination of your guests, whatever suits the purpose. (d) etc. 5. They will constantly try to dominate all household decisions...

Restless it slithers under your skin, pore by pore. Like a low hanging mist that invades inside your room, it shall envelope all of your being. Your only fighting chance is if you can only keep urging yourself to believe that there is hope, even if there is fifty percent probability that there is none. All the passive aggressive words, gestures, situations you were trapped in will feverishly send shivers of an incurable flu. You will try to block block block all if it, the noiseless cacophony that pours into the eardrums soundlessly like molten lava but there is no escape from this hell. You are the inferno that created arson. Burn.