Unrealistic Expectations

I struggle a lot with unrealistic expectations. Workwise I am often told to get things done without being briefed. 

Imagine yourself being given simply this statement - 'Do it.'

You know it's regarding a book called 'Name'. 

That's it. That's all the information you have. 

When you ask for the book or more information, you are abused passive aggressively or otherwise. And not just one person but many. How can multiple people be wrong, eh? They may chide you for being impatient as they would claim to give you the documents/brief you at a later stage. 

However, this does not change the truth. The truth that I was asked to do something without being given any information whatsoever. 

The truth that I was made to feel less, deliberately. Yes deliberately and intentionally by people who could not control their own emotions. People who think I am nothing or my emotions don't matter or simply don't care if I am hurt. Well, I sincerely believe in tit for tat and being unapologetic about it. I also believe in having the power to say 'No'. I don't like being bullied. It's coarse like sandpaper rubbing on my heart. So, I will say 'No'. Especially where people speak to be with even an iota of violence. They lose respect in my eyes immediately.

There are monsters out there here. To prove they are correct, they will make me feel less. But that's the thing. Everyone is something. I am a lot. And try as they may, through years and years of torture, I have learnt to ignore their rabidness of frustrated humans and believe in myself. Few mad dogs fangs and barks cannot change the truth. My truth that I matter. That I have ability and intellect to solve certain problems. That I am shrewd enough to now see them for the monsters they are in the whirlpool of their frustration.

That I don't fucking care about them and am very protective of my well being. So they can burn in their inner Hell and idgaf.

Wow. Feels good to share. Cheers.