Trauma

I feel anger and rage. That bitch of a flatmate has entered into a conspiracy with the landlord. They have made me pay the electricity bill, chimney servicing and everything. And now they want me to pay for additional stuff instead of refunding ke the deposit. 
I am at my wits end. That manipulative lady is manipulating the situation and getting her house painted and making me pay for polishing etc. via the landlord. 
That crazy manipulative bitch is making me go mad. I feel depressed, anxiety ridden, angry and cheated.
This hurts. I am being bullied and the bully is getting away with it. There are simply no repercussions on her or her puppet landlord.
There is no justice in this world.
I hate my life and self for being so weak and vulnerable. I feel like ending it all. 

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